Ann's Abode

I was walking by your lane
my heart was in your thoughts.
saw you running towards me
wearing a white robe
my face started glowing with a smile
but that moment did not stay for ever
you vanished with the air
I realized that I was dreaming
I fell down on my knees
pain and agony in my heart
I m still longing for that day
the day that lies in the past!!!!!


I was sleeping in my bed
your thoughts became my dream.
I saw you staring into my eyes
and I was staring back at yours
I saw the entire world in your eyes
but you vanished as my eyes opened
I got up from my dream
the world that was so beautiful through your eyes
has no meaning for me now
pain and agony in my heart
i am still longing for that day
the day that lies in the past!!!!!!

I was talking on the phone
your dream became my delusion.
I heard you telling me I Love you
I was crying out of joy
there was felicity in my voice
I could feel your face in front of me
but you vanished just as your sound
your face in front of me was long gone
pain and agony in my heart
i m still longing for that day
the day that lies in the past!!!!!


I was walking on a quiet lane
your delusion became my vision.
you held my hand and i felt your warmth
I felt the warmth of your love flowing through my body
I embraced you tight I didnt want you to go
but still you vanished like everytime
I fell down on my knees
pain and agony in my heart
I m still longing for that day
the day that lies in the past

At “yet another crossroad” of life’s journey
I walked into a stranger who joined me in the odyssey of life.

Days went by....Time ticked it’s way through weeks,months and years as I trod life’s tortuous and unpredictable avenues never realizing the subtle presence of this cohort-my fellow traveler.

This span of time is all but a collection of moments-

Moments of your vanity...Moments of my consuming ego

Moments when I hurt you...Moments when you annoyed me

Moments when we differed...Moments when we conformed

Moments when you spoke...Moments when i listened

Moments when I didn’t speak...Moments when you still listened

Moments of laughing together..Moments when we remained silent

Moments when distances crept in..Moments when intimacy erased them

Moments when I comforted you...Moments when you understood me

Moments when you complained...Moments when I apologized

Moments when I asserted...Moments when you acknowledged

Pain inflicted,heart broken,sorrows lived,failures engulfed,existence torn apart,integrity interrogated,hopes crushed....but yet my heart bears no complains to GOD and LIFE who have endowed me with a

“A FRIEND LIKE YOU”

frustrated...confused...may be i should have joined classes for everything,
then no cribbing no nuthing...could have just taught a bunch of people and gotten my way out of this HELLL! ...there would have been no nervousness as to...wat is goin to happen!!!
so my mom was rite!...but my pride will kill me before i admit it to HER! :P
itz crazzy... left me feelin lk ...m in a crisis situation!
20 days ...5 vivas n den papers where i am supposed to score at least a 63%!
but m sure ill rise above the odds...jus gotta live it through ...n keep striving!
feelin bttr already!
:-)

know what! .. got it ... i finally put the pieces of ME together :D
I am so happy!
ya ya.. it din't just strike me...i read an article that lead me through

its coz i m a High maintenance woman!..n stop smirkin coz that's not such a bad thing!
High maintenance means being fussy n being fussy means having standards n the last time i checked ..that was'nt such a bad thing ;)
The only ppl who see low maintenance as a good thing r those who want to give less without feelin guilty!

its lk...all making sense..y m so particular about the way i look?..y i BLUFF to da xternals? (ref prev blog :P)

(smiling) n hopefully at peace nw ..4 a while at least ..
so till ma mind goes into overdrive again!...
ciao..

So ill just go crazy den... ;)

My confused mind is screaming out in absolute abandon...all it needs is some help!!
help...not of da advice variety ..help of da tight slap variety!... I am not gettin around to just FOCUS!

I realized tht i believe ...i can BULLSHIT ma way through anything...be it Vivas..or written exams or speeches!..as in..like...I believe in confusing and intimidating others enough so that dey think u knw wat ur talking about ..when dats soooooo not da case :P

mayb i dun bliv dey r smart nough 2 catch ma bluff.. or i jus dun bliv in maself nough 2 give da REAL moa!
dunno wat it is...as i said ...HELP!
neway,
enough blabbin' 4 2day !!
ciao ..