Ann's Abode

Heya Pumpkins! i know i have been missing from action for quite a while ... i attribute that to all the perks that come with a gruelling job hunt, deciding where u want to be and then finally settling IN! but then again being the vagabond i am, u never know for how long that is unless i find someplace that just makes me stay with the warm culture, great work ethic and growth prospects. Now cmon' is that too much to ask or am i just hallucinating !

Anyway, what finally prompted me to write is the fact that i was shocked out of my wits and am still in shock actually even though the incident happened yesterday! My cell got stolen THRICE and this time from my bag from (quite literally) under my nose, but to my credit there was no place to move and i don't exactly know when it happened ... Yes, m talking about an unfortunate incident in the local trains of Mumbai!
Talk about being at the wrong place at the wrong time!

Its funny how other people's misfortunes tend to make u feel better, i met a woman while coming today whose pass even got stolen along with her cellphone, since then i am feeling a bit better but not for long until i realized that we had both done the same stupid mistake of leaving it in the front pocket of the purse, so all you dearies reading this BEWARE n BE ON HIGH ALERT lest the same misfortune befall you.

Now m taking ma shell shocked demeanour and getting out of here... Have a good day ... ciao!

When we feel we have nothing left to give
And we are sure that the song has ended
When our day seems over and the shadows fall
And the darkness of night has descended.

Where can we go to find the strength
To valiantly keep on trying,
Where can we find the hand that will dry
The tears that the heart is crying.
There’s but one place to go and that is to God
And, dropping all pretense and pride,
We can pour out our problems without restraint
And gain strength from Him at our side.
And together we stand at life’s crossroads
And view what we think is the end
But God has a much bigger vision
And He tells us it’s only a bend.

For the road goes on and is smoother
And the pause in the song is a rest
And the part that’s unsung and unfinished
Is the sweetest and richest and best.

So rest and relax and grow stronger
Let go and let God share your load
Your work is not finished or ended,
You’ve just come to a bend in the road.

I happened to come across this quote. As I pondered through it … I found it so true!

After all what is love? And why is everyone’s definition of it .. so very different , yeah! You guessed it right .
Because it depends solely upon each one’s imagination as to what each one makes of it!
Phew! I am relieved coz never having been in love is not so bad now ..I am just not imaginative enough :P

I calculated my marks – the way I have never calculated
Found out the marks of every year !
My aggregate has come upto 54.34%
Its not fantastic! But I am satisfied . . .

I asked myself why and got this answer :

Because my aim in these 5 years has never been marks

Marks – I used to forget about it now and then; it was as if I had this ‘Been there done that’ feeling about marks. (I had done well in my 10th , 11th and 12th) so I got bored of scoring (oh yeah that happens to me) … I even get bored of winning and that’s when I know it’s time to change the game .. I have this conquer and move ahead kinda thinking and then I never look back.

But then was I aimless all these years … I think NOT!

I had an aim for which I have scoured all possible articles, read every other magazine and book to get closer to my ideal!

Yess .. my ideal was and has been for a while .. just to shape me .. to artistically create what I want to make of Anu .. my mind is always churning new ways to cross that next road block that stops me from me becoming who I want to be …Which is why I am absolutely sure .. ill get there ...

A good friend of mine had actually told me once that in your race to get somewhere else , it shouldn’t be that you don’t stop and enjoy where you are :)

ohh kats ! how do you know me so well but then again of course you do .. because you are the only person who I actually update when I cross every other ‘road - block’ .. thanks for listening and never mind the ‘u r always saying something ’ attitude of your's ! huh! (winks).

So I am enjoying the ride and cherishing what I have actually achieved in these five years ..

I have achieved a kickass personality , THIS is my GOLD!

I now realise what Self-Motivation is all about . . .

I was travelling to college to study during my preparatory leave for my Semester 8 exams, when i bumped into this school friend of mine. She did seem thrilled to see me bt could/would not talk ..later i realised she could not as she had been practising for her play all of the previous day. . . but there was a serenity about her . . She was happy,satisfied and more importantly Content!

i envied her peace . . .

Soon she got up ,leaned out of the train and started taking pictures of the sun by the sea .

i envied her job. . .

Soon i heard myself rattling on and on to her about how unsure i am about this whole engineering thing and whether i am actually cut out for it .She heard me out patiently and then said you dont know what you are cut out for unless you experience it and rightly enough mugging from books does'nt make for experience as an engineer.

She then said you can be anything you want to be . . but for that you've got to know what you are NOT and what if This is what you want to be .This got me thinking what if i lose out on this 'opportunity ' due to my small- sightedness . . .

I now realise what Self-Motivation is all about . . .

I am more Self-Aware now and don't easily crib about life . . i watch my words now and more importantly my thoughts which is why that smile hardly leaves my face . . .

This must be my most intimate post ever ... deepest thoughts revealed ... darkest questions answered ... life unveiled ... peace finally overflows!!!

I have been searching for the purpose of life since a while now, here's what I found.

The Journey begins here:

According to Hatha Yoga, there are seven chakras in our body situated in areas ranging from the Base of the Spine (1st chakra) to the Upper Brain (7th chakra).

The work "chakra" comes from the Sanskrit language of India and translated, means "wheel." Indians believe the body contains seven main chakras, arranged vertically from the base of the spine to the top of the head. These chakras are thought of as spinning vortexes of energy, thus wheels of light.
Each chakra is associated with particular functions within the body and with specific life issues and the way we handle them, both inside ourselves and in our interactions with the world.
Chakras can be thought of as sites where we receive, absorb, and distribute life energies. Through external situations and internal habits, a chakra can become either deficient or excessive, and imbalanced.
The lower chakras focus on details such as our home, family, and emotions, while the upper chakras focus on the spiritual aspect of our lives. All of the chakras affect one another and work together.
By balancing our chakras, we also balance our lives.
The 7th chakra is located at the crown of the head and serves as the crown of the entire chakra system, symbolizing the highest state of enlightenment.
The function of the 7th chakra is connection with the infinite.

In art, Christ is depicted with a halo around his head. This could represent the awakened spirituality of the 7th chakra.

The element of the 7th chakra is thought/cosmic consciousness/nirvana/Christ consciousness/Krishna consciousness/moksha.

They are all essentially the same thing!

It is the state one is in when one has achieved the 1st chakra of meditation, also called 'Super Consciousness'.

Western culture acknowledges this achievement as the Unity of mind, body and soul.
Any disunity has often led us to say, "I am feeling beside myself".

Try meditating and you will know what I mean … you will get distracted by one thought or the other; even the body might start twitching just because it doesn't want a master. We are usually at war with ourselves, wanting different things at the same time.

In this state of balance, one is said to be able to experience every other being around for miles e.g.: He can even feel the anxiety with which a mound of ants go about their work!!
The same way that God feels and knows all of us . . .

Once in this state he is one with God himself and doesn't ever want to return to the petty turmoil's of the world...This explains how the sadhu's meditate for years on end.

God himself is explained in various religions with the concept of three ---

 Christianity describes him as: The Holy Trinity; The Father, The Son and The Holy Spirit, All are different BUT ONE!

 Hinduism describes him as: The Creator Bramha, The Preserver Vishnu and The Destroyer Shiva. All are different BUT ONE!


 Time is Past, Present and Future. All are different BUT ONE!

 Consciousness is Sub Consciousness, Consciousness and Super Consciousness... All are different BUT ONE!

There is nothing but HIM! …There is ONLY Him!

God had created man in his likeness so he could live life through him, which is why we have challenges placed in front of us time and again …so that God can live through everything and experience himself to the fullest. NO! This is no Exaggeration ...the expanse of one mind is so huge ...the shades one person can take are so diverse (There are dark and light shades to every person)... that knowing who one truly is CAN be a challenge!

We have been created by him and for him so that he can experience every possible emotion through us, later we all return to HIM!

But if he is trying to experience life through us ... Why are so many of us trying to become like him by attaining moksha/nirvana /Christ Consciousness/Krishna Consciousness… then

What is this ongoing hunt for spirituality all about anyway?

What we fail to understand is that Life is given to us, only for really living.

We can live it to the fullest only by being true to ourselves.

By being who we are.

By doing only what the Inner voice tells us to do.

[I strongly believe this inner voice is GOD himself as I have got the best solutions often just through introspection or as I like to call it through communication with GOD]

By not dismissing our First instincts (such as give to the poor when your first instinct is to give)...

BY loving first ourselves unconditionally!!! (without any condition just as we are, not a few pounds lighter, not one promotion later) because how can we love others if we don't love ourselves … Else how can we give what we ourselves do not possess?

What we cannot believe is that it's all so simple!

We don't need to bear ourselves … We need to celebrate ourselves!

We need to KNOW that we are Worthy... we need to LIVE...
To love ... To hurt . . . To be happy. . . To be distraught ... Because ‘now' is all there is!